The most heroic thing Jarren Duran does in Netflix’s ‘The Clubhouse’ has nothing to do with baseball.

In Episode 4 of the eight-episode series on the 2024 Red Sox, which premiered on the streaming platform on Tuesday, the team’s leadoff man opens up about attempting suicide after struggling during his first big league stints in 2021 and 2022.

“I got to the point where I was sitting in my room, I had my rifle, and I had a bullet, and I pulled the trigger, and the gun clicked but nothing happened,” Duran says in the episode. “To this day I think God just didn’t let me take my own life because I seriously don’t know why it didn’t go off.”

Duran, his parents, and team officials put out statements on the Red Sox social media accounts on Tuesday morning, before he took questions from reporters in the clubhouse that afternoon. He spoke about being in a better place in his life, with a “good support group” of teammates, friends, and family, and knowing what he needs to do to take care of his mental health.

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Asked if he had a message for fans, Duran said he wanted people to know that they’re not alone.

“Ask for help,” he said. “I know it’s not easy. I mean, I know that I never wanted to ask anybody because I always felt like I was a bother. But I’ve been told by tons of friends and family that it’s never a bother to somebody that cares about you.”

Yet having been in that place himself, Duran understands it’s easier said than done.

“The resources were always — they’ve been there. It’s just, when you’re going through it, you just don’t really want to talk about it,” he said. “It’s just kind of like you versus you and you just kind of shut yourself off from the world. I mean, it’s pretty lonely.”

Told that Samaritans, the organization that provides emotional support and suicide prevention services, including a 24/7 call and text hotline, had received triple their normal amount of calls after his story broke, Duran said it meant a lot.

“That was the whole purpose of me sharing,” said Duran, explaining that he hadn’t planned to speak about this during filming until the moment “just kind of happened.” “It’s not easy to talk about but I was just — really thought deep down, if I could help at least one person, that it was gonna be meaningful.”

“Knowing that other people are doing that because I talked about it, it’s really heartwarming, and I hope that I can help spread the love that people need to support each other,” he added.

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Duran hopes his story helps change how the public sees athletes, and how they treat one another. He revealed that he had an “eye-opening” experience during spring training, when younger players in the organization approached him to talk and ask for advice about taking care of their mental health.

In his Tuesday pregame availability, Manager Alex Cora praised Duran’s growth from a rookie who didn’t want to talk to the media during a rough stretch to a team leader who’s launching a foundation.

“He’s standing in that clubhouse talking about real stuff,” Cora said. “The growth, from the player, for the person, the relationships, we’re very proud of him.”

“He’s saving lives,” Cora continued, echoing his Monday comments. “Obviously it’s not going to be a packed house tonight with the weather but he should get a standing ovation right away, not for what he went through but what he’s doing with it.”

Cora also declared that Duran should receive baseball’s highest honor.

“He should be nominated already for the Roberto Clemente Award right now,” Cora said. “He should win it, to be honest with you, just because of what he said and what he’s doing. He’s saving lives and we’re very proud of him.”

Becoming a vocal mental health advocate comes with a different type of pressure and scrutiny, but it’s a kind Duran says he wants.

“There’s a little more cameras around, so they have a little bit more weight, but it’s a good weight,” he said with a smile. “Just helping people talk about it and realize like, ‘Hey, if Jarren Duran can go through this, then I can go through this’ and talk to somebody.”

If you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide, call or text 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline, or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741.